Friday, December 25, 2009

Roar Again, and Again


Gosh! Have not updated my blog for 2.5 months, since I started my new job:)

I'm sure some would be wondering. Yeah, it started out well, very hectic and a lot of writing. But for the first time, I actually get a boss that I can get along well with. From day one, I observe her carefully, how she manages people especially. I think that is the only thing that puts her above me. In terms of expertise, we are quite at par. I have to say that managing subordinates in the private sector is not half as tough as in the government sector. I was really relieved not to be the head anymore though, to have nobody reporting to me.

She is soft spoken, but demanding in her own way. I was physically tired, but comfortable. There is an arrogant foreign colleague who gets on my nerve, but she is junior and powerless, so it's not a big deal. I thought she was the only unpleasant element. I stepped onto a senior person's toe on my third day at work. By that, I accidentally nailed down the key problem of the organisation. She was pissed off with me but there wasn't any long-term damaging effect. I was glad to stumble upon it early and not waste my time churning out the solutions to a problem that cannot be solved, because the people involved are reluctant and defensive for some reasons.

Deep down, I knew it was too easy. Never had it that easy before. After 6 months, I'll get a confirmation, no delay. I spoke too soon.

2 months later, there was a major change, politically-motivated, and a new department head came in. She changed the structure and put everybody at the same level, reporting directly to her. Pity my boss who had given her heart and soul to the company for years. Now, I have to prove myself. My job descriptions have the least change, as compared to the other members of the department. And to be fair, the new boss is still more tolerable than many bosses I've had in the past. Just that it angered me, because now I have to struggle just like everywhere else that I've been at during the last 10 years. No time out at all. I am exhausted.

The only consolation I get is that I get to learn some high-level politics by frequent interactions with a pro, yeah, this new boss is a master manipulator. I could see that already, after a month. And she has set her mind to tackle that specific problem that I had stumbled onto. She is more politically savvy, maybe she can do it. Anyway, I tell myself that I cannot get stuck in this post forever, though it pays well. There will come a time when I need to make a career advancement and head a department, or two, again. This is my chance to pick up a few tricks.

For now, I am going for a week-long unwinding vacation in the Lion City again. Yeah, city of memories, every time I go there, I'd be fighting a different demon. No exception this time. Merry Christmas and see you soon:)

8 comments:

Kak Elle said...

have a good break whilst you are here - Singapore welcome visitors:)

Uncle Lee said...

Hello Hazia, Happy new year. Wishing you the very best of 2010.
You stay young, stay beautiful and have a great New Year. Best regards, Lee.

Ms Lavendar said...

"There is an arrogant foreign colleague who gets on my nerve, but she is junior and powerless...."

hahahaha... hope you had a wonderful break! I'm still job searching. So pray for me, girl!

Hazia said...

Kak Elle: Thanks, Singapore was great!

Uncle Lee: Haopy New Year! Wish I have time to visit your blog regularly. I don't even have time to update my own blog:p

Lavender: Gosh, didn't even remember writing that. That week-long holiday must have really refreshed me, hehe. I'm determine to hold on to this job for as long as I could, and close one eye on the craps. Tired of searching and moving la. All the best to you! What field? Don't mind sharing tips, hehe...

Nong said...

Lama tak update. Hope u are ok...

Hazia said...

Hi Kak Nong.Apa khabar?
I'm ok, cuma tak sempat nak update lagi. Cerita holiday pun dah basi, LOL!

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